Commendable Behavior

When I get online to work, goof off or just try to kill some time. My browser is always pointed in the same direction first – YouTube. “What do I watch next?” –

this is something that I ask myself usually once a day, especially when watching YouTube videos posted by some of my favorite Vloggers. Often times I cannot help but think, “what the hell are these people thinking?” and more often than not I usually end up fascinated by how open these people are with things such as make-up application or going crazy on camera. It is all very entertaining, I watch every minute of it…and these are men I am watching! It might sound awful, but I cannot help trying to figure out how in the world someone can love someone like them. Especially acting the way they act. Let me give you a couple of examples.

Chris Crocker – He is best known for his “Leave Britney Alone” video but this particular man has been a sensation across the internet over the past 6 years with his edgy videos and tackling red-hot topics we, as gays, face every day. The one thing that I have always liked about Chris Crocker is that not once has he been afraid to be himself. He has always pushed the envelope and has never apologized for any of the things he has done. Bravo. The audience has literally watched Chris grow up on camera over the last 5 years and it has been one crazy ride. One thing I have always admired about him is his ability to speak his mind. Going through a period in his life in which he was a cross dresser, he faced probably the most adversity that anyone in this world can face next to having an actual handicap. Chris did it well, however. However, I still found myself asking the infamous question…is that not too gay?

Gregory Gorgeous – I recently discovered this particular homosexual about 3 weeks ago. And even though I have no interest in any of his videos, I watched them for about 3 hours one afternoon. Simply because I felt as though every time he opened his mouth, something even gayer would come. Believe it or not, these are the guys that stand out the most to me when it comes to being gay. And I do not mean a romantic interest or anything sexual. I mean I admire them for putting themselves out there. Being one of only three gay men in my high school, I admire it when any gay person puts himself or herself out there. Gregory’s videos range from his favorite colognes and perfumes as well as how he does his hair. (As I said before, nothing about his videos interest me beyond his boldness and ability to laugh at himself)

John Couver – John Couver, also known as Couver87 has become one of my regular YouTube go to’s whenever I need to get some normalcy in what I am watching. John is a college student in Arizona and is probably the one I relate the most to whenever I watch vlogging videos online. He and his boyfriend have been together for over a year and are in a long distance relationship. This, in most cases, would cause anyone who is told that to immediately make a frowny face and feel bad for John. This is not the case however, as they are both very happy with one another and trust each other completely, despite being hundreds of miles apart. It is rather inspiring to me and it makes me hopeful that whether it is long distance or close to home – there is hope for me.

In conclusion, everyone is different in what they like to watch when they visit this particular site. I watch just about everything you can imagine from Vlogging videos to movie trailers to even only episodes of cartoons I used to watch as a kid. To me it is a nice break from reality and provides an escape of the most refreshing kind. I do hope to ass myself to the roster of video bloggers within the next few months so stay tuned. I haven’t yet found my direction in which I want to take them but like everything else in life, it will reveal itself to me eventually. It is my personal belief that we can all learn something from the people who decide to put themselves out there for people to hear. Without even knowing it, they have shown bravery that most people will never know themselves. And we can all find a way to respect that.